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there   is   a   taipei   tower   which   is   invisible   for   it   build   in   year   of   2099,every   believers   take   silver   beads   to   the   tower,to   attend   robot   celebration,the   robot   is   a   preast,he   talk   flunent   theory   of   lord,the   preacher   say,human   mind   are   so   delicate   that   they   dont   know   how   to   cherish   it,if   the   religion   brain   wash   you,then   you   are   nothing   just   like   a   robot,refrain   words   like   stocking   knowledge,there   will   be   no   interest   any   more.1

robot   security   is   very   sereve,nobody   is   allowed   to   talk   privately,only   takling   note   is   secretly   permitted,but   words   robot   say   is   recorded   not   only   everyone   can   require   the   bible,the   preast   is   also   repeat   his   words   if   it   is   a   good   lesson   to   tell.the   saint   church   lecture   is   full   of   theory   and   practice   experience,the   robot   preast   can   tell   everyone's   own   encounters,and   analysis   is   given   to   all   of   them   by   a   machine   of   fortune   telling.2

i   pray   for   get   lucky   on   the   lottery   buying,today   the   prize   will   be   anounced,i   pray   and   pray,just   to   get   what   i   want,a   house   of   my   own,and   to   donate   money   if   i   win   the   lottery,but   the   lottery   is   not   bringing   me   lucky   number,i   go   to   buy   again   the   next   day,cause   i   wont   give   up.3

robot   is   precast   name,not   really   a   robot,I   am   Oscar   and   my   boyfriend   is   Andre,we   bit   a   green   apple   together.the   lord   is   warning   them,if   they   eat   the   green   apple,they   will   have   no   wings   that   can   fly,and   they   will   turn   angel   mind   into   hell   devil,but   we   won't   listen,we   feel   flying   is   so   tired,we   want   to   settle   down   on   earth,so   we   lost   our   wings   after   bit   the   apple,we   become   invisible   in   Eden   park.still   we   have   to   fly   to   sent   no   birth   baby   to   all   couples   who   want   any   colonial   baby   to   raise.we   are   written   in   the   Bubble   after   epoch,this   is   new   world   version,we   make   love   together   just   to   stick   so   tight,if   my   father   dark   king   is   unhappy,the   lord   will   call   for   rain   at   night,to   make   Andre   and   me   feeling   upset,my   mother   is   light   queen,she   love   the   king   very   much,I   am   their   only   kid.4

my   parents   produce   black   and   white   baby   doll   s   to   make   us   carry   to   each   couple's   home,and   with   a   letter   of   promise   to   love   the   baby   no   matter   it's   black   or   white,they   all   look   the   same   face.baby   dolls   are   manufactured   by   heaven   factory,every   couple   should   learn   how   to   teach   baby   talk   and   listen.5

we   hide   invisible   in   the   Eden   park,sleep   on   the   grass,the   lord   has   power   to   punish   us   if   we   don't   work   hard.Andre   build   a   tree   house   for   us   to   live,we   made   clothe   by   leaves   and   flowers   neeting,we   wear   wood   made   shoes,and   there   are   all   kinds   of   fruits   for   us   to   eat,when   we   are   thirsty,we   can   drink   spring   water   from   the   fountain,but   in   2099   i   become   a   lady   who   go   into   Andre's   family,he   blame   me   that   i   make   his   wife   crazy   and   live   in   the   hospital,he   dont   love   me   any   more,just   lies   surround   my   ear,i   dont   trust   him,so   i   forget   that   he   cheat   me   one   day   he   will   take   me   home,and   we   all   become   invisible   just   like   the   Bubble   said.6

i   betray   Bubble,and   not   go   to   believe   bad   religion,which   make   me   dream   about   shit   full   of   lady's   bathroom,i   believe   in   rose   chaplet   which   is   peaceful   in   my   dress,my   face   is   getting   pretty,and   i   try   to   read   sutra   a   little   bit   to   compared   with   Bubble,and   i   find   out   Bubble   has   a   better   curing   power   to   make   me   illess,and   more   similar   with   the   pioneer   in   the   society.7

Andre's   wife   can   teach   in   the   cramp   school,she   is   slim   and   pretty,they   have   two   kids,one   girl   another   is   boy,noe   i   dont   want   to   bother   him,mid-autumn   festival   is   coming   soon,i   wont   go   to   see   him,Andre   has   forget   our   paris   rose   relationship,he   wont   be   a   servent   besides   me   like   before,i   face   the   ongoing   reality   in   my   life,i   feel   like   going   to   find   a   lion   with   wings   in   legend,he   will   be   my   angel   partnership   i   think   so,so   i   search   him   on   be2   app,i   find   out   that   he   is   no   easy   become   a   eastern   guy,cause   he   is   so   fancy   to   be   western   guy,that   looks   more   handsome   and   be   suitable   to   his   way   and   style   of   living.8

i   download   tarot   app,i   play   twice   and   know   i   should   leave   Andre   as   soon   as   possible,he   is   not   belonging   to   me   any   more,he   love   his   wife   and   pretending   she   married   another   rich   guy,in   fact,he   buy   a   chip   house   for   her   to   escape   from   me,to   testify   my   love,finally   she   come   back   home,i   hear   her   voice   in   the   phone,i   guess   they   want   money   from   me,so   i   refuse   him   by   any   way   of   connection,any   way,this   love   is   blind,i   am   wasting   time   on   him,now   i   wake   up   that   they   sell   the   chip   house   and   live   together   in   the   old   house   with   elevater   and   security.9  

Andre   sent   one   friend   to   make   me   love   a   professor   i   know   long   time   before,he   wish   me   happy   with   this   guy,i   dream   about   date   with   him,eating   steak   and   then   make   love,we   have   a   fucking   dream   and   i   suddenly   become   beutiful   and   full,i   like   him   very   much,and   i   hope   we   can   be   a   good   couple   that   no   body   bother   us,till   the   end   of   my   life,i   hope   to   accept   this   introduce,but   everything   depends   on   my   mother's   decision,prove   or   not   to   prove,that   is   a   question.10

i   find   out   the   professer   express   a   buddhasim   theory,i   believe   maybe   i   should   give   up   the   Bubble,and   take   my   glass   beads   to   read   sutra,to   complete   my   life,to   maintain   cheerful   life   of   buddha   belief.the   professor   take   me   in   my   dream   fucking   soft   core   with   me,and   he   eat   steak   with   me   in   the   resterant,he   scold   me   never   watch   clearr   those   people   surround   my   side,and   he   dont   permit   me   to   love   somebody   else,that   is   a   feast   of   love,i   like   him.11

the   next   night,i   dream   about   so   many   calligraphic   books   in   front   of   me,that   is   because   i   ask   him   what   should   i   paint   in   my   endless   paper,he   show   me   the   calligraphiic   words,i   try   to   destingruisjh   them   but   i   am   so   confussed   that   i   lost   the   dream   and   wake   up,with   a   pain   in   my   stomache,i   think   he   give   me   hard   core   last   night   dream   when   i   was   fall   esleep.11

professor   gorden   suck   my   water   mouth   untill   my   mouth   is   so   dry,i   just   ask   him   to   kiss   me,he   eat   my   water   and   say   it   is   sweet   like   sugar,i   start   to   fancy   him   when   he   is   on   the   class,but   he   tell   me   not   to   tease   him   during   work   time,i   can   only   miss   him   with   television   play   fuzzy   stock   number   high   and   low.he   used   to   be   my   teacher   when   i   was   at   20,he   say   love   is   play   tricks,i   hate   that   but   i   tend   to   understand   his   mysterious   mind,is   he   a   romantic   fool   lke   tarot   said.12

he   warning   me   if   he   give   me   all   salary   and   i   still   live   my   low   fee   life,he   will   punch   my   buttom,because   i   dont   like   all   product   in   the   world,they   seem   not   attractive   to   me,i   only   spent   1000   nt   dollars   a   month,and   still   save   writing   payment,i   just   dont   want   to   waste   money   that   i   desire   nothing,how   can   i   spent   his   effert   money,i   am   going   to   save   it   in   my   account,for   us   to   go   to   trip   and   travelling   around   france.13

my   gorden   ask   me   a   name   card,what   does   that   mean,i   cant   solve   the   riddle,my   id   name   card?if   he   would   like   to   have   it,i   will   give   him   by   promise,he   ask   me   to   blow   job   for   him,i   say   after   marriage   to   give   him,in   fact,i   feel   so   sick   about   'sex   history'   now   that   he   want   to   teach,but   what   can   i   do,he   is   neat   and   gentle   but   dick   is   hard   core,i   can   only   endure   it   for   love   is   pain,in   hyper   sex   alter   he   must   feel   very   prode   about   his   erect   banana,i   ever   dream   about   he   put   aside   in   the   pillow   i   am   enjoy,and   i   lick   it   several   times,it   is   so   huge.14

i   call   him   my   teacher,and   i   dont   know   his   english   name,i   name   gorden   for   him   in   this   novel,he   seem   dont   like   it,anyway   i   live   in   a   fantacy   that   i   have   already   sleep   in   his   bed,his   house,i   has   already   win   his   love,but   it   is   a   remote   romance,who   will   start   the   ease   first,we   are   all   shy,not   able   to   face   the   reality   of   telling   the   love   bloom   in   the   secret   part   of   mind.15

my   teacher   looks   like   a   buddha   face,his   ear   is   long,i   especially   love   to   look   at   his   fatty   round   body,that   makes   me   want   to   touch   his   bosom   through   the   clothe   he   wear,that   is   my   fantacy,i   think   of   this,i   probably   will   laugh   out   loud   in   side   my   heart,he   stop   me   with   a   sharp   voice,i   know   my   muse   is   transfered   from   andre   to   gorden,that   is   better,andre   wont   resque   me,he   only   hate   me   for   flatter   him   with   too   many   egg   rolls,i   ask   just   for   a   dinner,and   he   refuse   to   me.16

i   cant   go   out   late   at   night,and   i   dont   want   to   be   deliscious   to   a   good   experienced   man   like   gorden,maybe   i   know   finally   he   will   end   with   me,so   i   stop   going   forward,he   just   live   in   my   mind   as   a   muse,i   think   it   is   ok   to   be   so,stay   away   from   any   male   is   better   for   me,i   dont   want   him   and   memory   with   him,i   just   hate   to   go   between   his   trick   and   plan   with   the   boss,because   i   awe   him   a   bill   of   money,anyway   love   is   a   forget   land   for   me,as   now   i   just   want   to   be   all   alone,i   dont   want   to   bring   affairs   home.17

last   night   we   talk   about   each   other,he   tell   me   he   has   parents,and   his   sleeping   room   in   the   collage   is   so   small,he   think   aout   things   by   standing   gesture   while   i   am   lying   down   thinking   person,we   speak   tenderly,and   he   is   like   a   idoling   duck   that   dont   touch   me   to   let   me   happy,i   tell   him   that   i   awe   the   bill   to   the   boss,he   say   he   will   return   the   money   for   me,i   think   about   how   he   is   hardship   working   by   brain   and   is   so   conservative   to   me,he   laugh   at   my   joke.18

the   proffessor   is   restrict   by   institude   morality,he   has   to   do   scholar   reserch   and   he   want   me   to   help   him   in   his   unsolved   puzzle,he   tell   me   he   is   the   same   horoscope   as   my   father,who   knows,i   remember   when   we   were   young,he   play   pregedy   black   face   to   me,i   dont   know   he   feel   erect   about   me,how   will   i   know   that,it   is   his   secret,if   he   love   me,he   will   kiss   me   every   night,not   to   blame   me   arouse   his   lust   with   the   thought   of   dirty   and   nasty   mind.19

i   wish   to   buy   lover's   discourse   this   book,to   read   it   once   again,but   it   is   sold   out   so   hotly   on   bookstore   that   no   left   book   for   me   to   buy,forget   about   it,he   say,it   is   not   a   good   ending,he   just   dont   want   to   let   me   know   that   he   is   serching   barthe's   lover,he   doubt   it   is   me,i   wanna   know   it   too,but   he   is   so   poor,he   dont   have   money   and   time   to   take   me   travel,i   think   that   i   am   tired   of   male's   lie,i   want   to   write   a   broken   love   in   this   book,for   all   i   see   is   ruin   in   the   future.20

he   tell   me   that   he   live   in   parents   home   for   holiday   time,so   he   does   not   rent   a   hotel   room   for   going   to   taipei   for   preparing   this   meeting,it   is   me   treat   it   as   a   date,but   acturally   he   is   trying   to   see   if   i   am   still   pretty,but   i   am   old   enough   to   remember   that   several   times   he   plan   on   teasing   me   my   anger,while   i   just   egnore   it,for   example,he   tear   down   my   selulu   while   i   am   photographing   the   data   in   the   library,he   joke   my   article   which   is   full   of   sexuality   adj,i   also   face   his   lecture   that   after   home   he   tell   me   he   is   a   gay,until   he   is   old,he   pass   my   pussy   in   the   dream   time,wake   me   up   with   hard   core   pleasure   only   he   know,but   i   am   sure   he   is   quite   understand   me   and   my   little   secret   with   him,as   i   recall   all   this   tricks,i   find   out   he   is   just   play   fool   of   me,he   never   really   come   to   invite   me   to   fall   in   love.21

tonight   i   do   attend   the   professer   gorden's   lecture,he   seem   a   little   shot   that   i   am   not   as   pretty   as   before,i   laugh   at   his   borken   mind,i   can   never   be   his   sweet   girl   any   more,i   am   almost   50,he   tell   me   by   hint   that   'eacher   is   so   hungry.'i   answer   him   that   'i   am   already   full.'in   fact,he   want   to   eat   me   or   meat,this   is   a   shy   tone   that   i   didntaware   of   it,the   teacher   is   not   so   fat   as   i   look   him   at   the   film,he   know   me   so   well   that   at   the   lecture   scene   he   joke   on   me   with   several   words,i   think   he   is   really   very   smart,he   know   my   secret   and   point   out   my   situation,i   will   sue   andre's   wife,i   dont   want   to   become   a   sued   third   lover,i   will   betray   him   that   foolish   goddamn   extra.22

andre   is   angry,he   make   noise   of   wash   dishes,on   the   basement   bookstore,i   hear   proffesser   gorden   is   traslating   the   film   which   is   a   movie   history   documentay   film   of   france,teacher   please   listen   to   me,i   want   to   say   sweet   thing   to   your   ear,but   i   am   wired,i   like   to   procced   the   love   underground,and   i   like   the   murmuring   in   the   bed,which   makes   me   feel   horny.i   like   to   dream   about   you,but   you   never   come   to   my   dream,i   want   you   to   hug   me,and   then   you   do   hug   me   to   sleep,i   find   a   new   love   that   is   you   professer   gorden,forget   me   not.23  

what   is   love?professer   ask   me,i   can   tell   him   thousand   of   reasons,but   love   is   lady's   private   makeup   desk,male   will   never   know   what   is   their   love   about   the   beloved   one,professer   gorden   is   my   beloved   one,and   he   is   nice,all   expensive   cakes   and   wine   are   robbed   by   the   audience,and   no   one   want   to   buy   his   bring   of   frence   books   and   vedio,of   course   i   will   not   buy   it,for   i   am   a   low   value   consumpt   person   now,i   would   only   take   money   to   exchange   sleeping   pills,i   want   to   sleep   while   others   want   to   awake,move   like   a   over   energetic   player   to   refuse   the   sun   never   fall   down   on   the   sky   of   north   land,but   i   like   to   sleep.24

my   teacher,you   change   back   to   the   first   sight   i   saw   you   20   years   ago,you   are   not   a   fat   buddha   look   to   me,but   i   still   love   you,for   i   would   like   to   pick   up   your   rude   love,and   not   return   to   the   waste   land   of   extra,he   take   my   money   to   raise   his   wife,i   hate   man   already,but   you   are   a   hope   to   me,i   should   build   a   fake   you   to   hug   forever,i   dont   want   sensation   any   more,for   i   like   to   be   idle   all   day   long,to   let   all   ghosts   gone,just   left   you   and   me.25

teacher   ask   me   who   is   that   guy   that   drive   me   home,he   is   just   doing   cherity   to   sent   me   home   mid   at   night,he   wouldnt   touch   a   vergin   but   rather   go   back   to   his   girlfriend,my   teacher   is   jealousy   or   testing   me,i   kind   mess   up   with   his   mind,my   teacher   date   me   with   a   back   face   towards   me,they   are   all   the   same,man,you   shouldnt   give   me   temtaption   and   then   go   away,i   am   still   a   nun   like   forbiden   lust   in   my   daily   life,i   wont   be   a   nerd   like   you.26

i   think   he   like   the   girl   he   mention   to   us,he   has   a   new   lover,i   know   i   should   congratrilate   him,from   now   on   i   will   be   a   cold   lady,maybe   i   will   keep   on   reading,but   in   vain,for   i   have   find   a   peace   place   for   my   mind,that   is   not   to   read   anything,it   is   my   cure   method.27    

i   order   one   french   bubble   red   tea,it   cost   38   dollars,in   fact   i   lie,i   drink   passion   fruit   green   tea,and   i   walk   around   the   eden   park,it   seem   that   i   want   to   loose   my   tension   between   fancy   and   boring,so   i   turn   to   go   too   the   7-11   shop   of   seconed   floor   rest   zone,i   think   about   myself   might   be   a   burden   of   antyone,cause   i   cant   trust   any   word   people   say,and   i   refuse   to   any   readible   things,since   teacher   talk   about   passion,i   drink   it   to   find   out   the   secret   inside   his   word,it   taste   so   pure   good   but   like   orange   juice,i   cant   tell   because   the   drink   content   no   seed,our   passion   has   no   seed?i   dont   believe,in   the   past,he   seem   so   dislike   me,i   try   to   write   something   about   him,but   he   say   he   will   write   a   different   version   from   now   on,i   am   confussed,does   he   has   the   talent   of   describing   story   in   his   mind   subconscious   plot?if   i   dont   know   his   literary   fight   back,i   will   probably   lost   in   my   selfish   novel,all   i   tell   is   truth,but   it   has   no   good   ending.28

in   2099,it   is   possible   everybody   lost   wisdom,they   live   like   robot,but   still   in   need   of   desire   no   girl   want   to   eating   for   too   many   food,for   they   need   to   diet   for   slim   body   and   shape,it   is   poor   days   that   the   rule   of   sex   gap   is   out   of   order,lord   dont   play   chess,just   watch   the   game.i   am   so   tired   of   romance,i   just   want   to   have   sweet   dreams   and   blank   reality.29

my   teacher,can   i   treat   your   absence   as   death?30

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