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我是一個地方記者.
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每天忙碌的生活著,左邊是工作,右邊也是工作,中間則是工作加工作.
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忙上忙下的讓我的身體真的被我忙出問題來了.
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左邊的膝蓋嚴重疲乏,右邊肩膀則是有五十肩的問題.
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而兩隻眼睛因為電腦使用過度還有近視和散光的毛病.
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我開始懂得去做復健,試著讓自己恢復成原來的樣子.
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然後再把自己忙壞...
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我不知道那是第幾次看到那個小女生了.
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她身旁坐著她的爸爸,也總是她的爸爸坐在她的身旁.
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那時候我看到她正在一張圖畫紙上畫著一個女人的臉.
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標準的眼睛鼻子嘴巴.
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除了那個看起來有職業水準的頭髮以外,其他地方都像是小孩子的隨手塗鴉.
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這時候原本在畫嘴巴的小女孩,突然把重點放在頭髮上的裝飾.
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起初我以為她是要畫蝴蝶結,可是當她問著她的爸爸:[爸爸你猜這個是什麼?]的時候,我看到的並不是蝴蝶結.
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那個爸爸很專心的看著由我們出版的垃圾報紙,輕輕的瞄了一眼,然後敷衍的說:
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[嗯...不知道.]
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小女孩看起來很失望,可是我總覺得她已經習慣了:
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[爸爸!!是水果喔!!]
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她的爸爸又看了一眼,點個頭,這次甚麼都沒說了.
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小女孩繼續畫著,畫了幾顆蘋果,幾顆櫻桃,幾顆葡萄,還有一些香蕉.
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(其實這幾種水果都畫成一個樣.)
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然後小女生又高興的拉著她爸爸的衣服說:
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[爸爸!!是水果喔!!]
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一副好像想教她爸爸水果長的什麼樣子的感覺,又一副好像自己畫的水果可以出國比賽的樣子.
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她爸很勤快的又瞄了一眼,我心裡頭突然說:
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[真感謝你啊~]
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小女孩笑了笑,又添上了幾個奇奇怪怪的水果,這幾個我已經看不出來是什麼了.
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接著小女孩依然是這句話:
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[爸爸!!是水果喔!!]
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這一次她的爸爸連看都沒看了.
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我心裡頭突然一陣酸,眼前的復健門診一診一診的叫著病人的號碼.
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小女孩和她的爸爸就這樣走近一個叫"兒童職能治療"的診所.
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就在那個時候吧?
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突然有一個老太太走了過來問著我:
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[年輕人,你還好吧?]
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當我要說話的時候,我才注意到...我哽咽了.
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老太太坐在我身邊,似乎也是病人的樣子.
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她雖然一開頭就關心著我,可是看我沒有說話,就靜靜的坐在一旁,等我把眼淚擦乾.
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擦去了屬於小女孩的幾滴淚水後,我馬上對著老太太回答著剛剛的話:
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[喔~我沒事,剛剛看到了一些感人的畫面,所以才...]
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突然補上了這句自嘲的話:
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[人老了,淚腺有時候就控制不住...]
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可是講了出來才發現到我的對象年紀可比我大多了:
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[啊!!不好意思!!]
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我趕緊道了歉,老太太只是揮揮手說:
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[沒有關係~我的確活了一大把年紀了,哈哈哈...]
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[不好意思!!]
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大概是因為工作的關係吧?我習慣性的又補上了一句"不好意思".
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[別覺得不好意思啦!!]
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老太太繼續揮著手,然後對我說:
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[更難聽的話我可聽過呢~可從沒一句話是會讓我生氣的.]
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充滿好奇心的我繼續聽著老太太講著:
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[從我十七歲那年開始吧~哈哈...好久了~]
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一位護士從我的診走了出來,喊了一個不是我的號碼.
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接著老太太繼續說著:
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[那個時候的我就已經不在乎什麼了.]
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突然她突然轉過她的左手,讓我看到手腕上那恐怖的割腕痕跡,她還一副沒什麼的樣子對我說:
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[十七歲以前,我可是有很多次想自殺唷~]
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[那個時候的我覺得對什麼東西都感到疲憊,自己感覺好累好累...]
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[自殺失敗的我,開始不在乎一切的活著,整天就是等著上帝接我回天堂.]
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[整天不在乎一切的過著日子,就這樣...我活到了九十六歲了唷!!]
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我幾乎是快跳了起來的說:
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[九十六歲了啊!!完全看不出來ㄟ!!]
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我收起了驚訝,繼續問著:
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[對不起,我是想問妳,妳都怎麼保養的啊?]
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老太太卻聳聳肩的說:
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[不在乎一切,就是我的保養吧?]
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突然一切都安靜了下來,好像只剩下老太太腦中的回憶在跑著:
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[我一生看過了許多死亡,每次都在期待下一個人會是我.]
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[可是身邊的人一個一個走了,總是只有我還活著,我開始會想...]
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[到底我是被死神遺忘了呢?還是...死神根本沒辦法遇到我?]
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我傻傻的看著老太太,診所的護士小姐走了出來喊了老太太的號碼.
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老太太笑著看了我一眼後,進入診所的那個背影,讓我想了很多很多...
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忙碌的我和不在乎一切的老太太成了一個強烈的比較.
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走出了復健科,回頭看著,裡頭的故事好多好多...
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每個人都有每個人的故事,每個故事都是如此的令人沈思.
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我依然在復健著,然後也依然讓自己累壞.
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就像是大部分的人一樣吧?
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to be continued...
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